My Patience is Lacking. I Want Results!

It has been 12 days since I started running and the number on the scale has stayed the same. Ugh! I even tried moving the scale to a different part of the floor to see if it changed. It did not.

 This is so maddening! How could this be?? I thought my stomach felt a little flatter! I even stopped drinking my nightly 3 Smirnoff Ice as I found out those bad boys pack 260 calories a piece. Yikes! (Josh bought me the Party Pack on Sunday. He said, what's the big deal, I'm running now so I can drink it. I have had two and I swear as I gulp it down I feel my ass growing!) I stopped eating the left over food from my children's plates and I have been trying to cut down on my portions. Still the fat is sticking!

I'm frustrated that not even a pound has been lost. In the past if I incorporated running into my life, I saw results right away..this time not so much! Blah..I must run more! I haven't even been able to run everyday because it rained here for almost a week straight. The most I have run is 1 3/4 miles, which was today..  I have very limited on time to run, so my time out hasn't been as long as I have wanted so I will work on trying to figure it into a bigger time slot next week.
Admittedly even before I was writing this blog, my arm was elbow deep in a bag of Tostitos, so there are more areas to improve. I also might have to incorporate sit ups and push ups, lunges and squats into my routine, but I will give running more of a chance to make an impact. I mean, it has to right?!?
On the bright side, I do feel good after running and really feel like I accomplished something for just me, so that is something positive to occur after these 12 days. I also continue to  look forward to the next day for when I can do it again.

Deep down I know what I'm doing is right and is good for me and I will ultimately see results. I just expected more than what I got and was I was disappointed as I anxiously brought out the scale.  So for now, I will keep on running because it is making me happy and I will make sure I don't try on my "skinny" clothes too soon so as not to lose my patience even more!

Yesterday You Said Tomorrow..(Yup, Still Fat)

I've had enough of my inner thighs touching, my arms jiggling, and my lower belly pooch! Yuck!  I don't think what I have can be considered post-partum baby fat, as now said baby is 18 months old!  My schedule is kind of crazy: during the week day, I wake up at 4:20 am and between work, taking care of my kids, making dinner, cleaning up, and bed time routines, I usually am not done with things (as if things are ever really done, but you get the point) until around 8:30 pm.  Well, at that point I'm certainly not in any mood to start working out! So making that time for myself is difficult. After baby # 1, I lost all baby weight plus some, but baby # 2 has been slightly different and I've had this extra 10 lbs of jiggle that has been lingering on. Now, 10 lbs may not seem like a lot to many people, but I'm only 5'3" and that extra is very apparent to me.  I consider myself to be skinny-fat.  So yes, I may be in my targeted healthy weight range but I have zero muscle tone!  Plus through the past few months my thighs (problem area) seem to be growing larger and larger which I attribute to my new found love of Smirnoff Ice at night.

All winter I said I was going to start working out. I don't have time to go to a gym and finding the motivation at home just wasn't happening.  I kept putting it off and putting it off.  Well, now summer is here and I'm fed up. I'm finally ready to get it started.  I have even managed to get Josh to help me with the boys so I have time to escape and go for a run; running has always been the easiest way for me to lose some fat and tone up a little. So tonight, I went out and ran a decent mile and a half. It felt great being out on a warm evening, running to Eminem in my iPod (plus I was able to run without peeing my pants and that was an added bonus..lol). I felt so great when I was done and am looking forward to making a better me and gaining my confidence back.  So there is no more saying I will start tomorrow.  Tomorrow has arrived and I'm ready.